Ride Alone

Another night, another road...
Same empty seat.
Guess we know how this goes.

I ride alone, alone, alone,
Got a million numbers in a silent phone.
Everybody needs me till I need somebody,
Then I'm back to figuring shit out on my own.
I ride alone, alone, alone,
Chasing down a place that I've never known.
Spent my whole damn life tryna find where I belong,
Now I'm scared I lost myself somewhere along the road.

Where you going?
Where you going?
Wish I knew...

I used to think forever meant forever,
Now I know it's just a word.
I was there through everybody's weather,
Funny how my storms went unheard.
Phone full of names I never call,
'Cause I already know how that ends.
Always the first one there when they fall,
Last one anybody checks on again.
And I ain't asking you to save me,
Just remind me who I am.
When the weight gets fucking heavy,
Tell me we'll figure out a plan.
I don't need another promise,
I've collected quite a few.
Just show up when there's nothing
That I can fucking do for you.

And I tried changing everything,
Everything except my heart.
Still wasn't enough to make you stay,
Still watched everybody depart.
Maybe I should've never stopped
Being who I was...

I ride alone, alone, alone,
Got a million numbers in a silent phone.
Everybody needs me till I need somebody,
Then I'm back to figuring shit out on my own.
I ride alone, alone, alone,
Chasing down a place that I've never known.
Spent my whole damn life tryna find where I belong,
Now I'm scared I lost myself somewhere along the road.

I ain't pushing people out,
I just know how people leave.
Still give everybody chances,
Still got something left to believe.
But I keep proving myself wrong,
Every time I prove 'em right.
Guess the only one who stayed
Was the one who couldn't leave my life.
And that's me.
Yeah, that's me.
Picking up the pieces that nobody else sees.
Time I can't recover,
People I can't replace.
Every time I look into the mirror,
I see another unfamiliar face.
I wanna be enough without becoming somebody else.
Wanna hear somebody say they're proud without having to ask for help.
Wanna mean something when I ain't bringing nothing.
Is that really asking too fucking much?

Pull the car over...
Let the engine die.
Step outside...
Look behind.
All those years I gave away,
All those words I chose to trust.
All the people I was scared to lose,
While I was slowly losing us.
If I had another lifetime,
I'd take a different road.
Wouldn't spend my whole life begging
For somebody to call me home.
But I ain't got a restart button,
And I don't know where to go.
I'm just tired of riding alone.

Hey...
Stop holding on to shit you cannot change.
You spent your whole life looking backward,
Wondering why they never stayed.
You gotta be your own Superman
Before you save somebody else.
And maybe the person you've been searching for
Is the one you never gave yourself.
Keep your third eye open.
Trust your gut along the way.
You don't have to know the answers.
Just don't give yourself away.
And for what it's worth...
I'm proud of you.
I'm proud you never gave up.

I ride alone, alone, alone,
Got a million numbers in a silent phone.
Everybody needs me till I need somebody,
But tonight I'm finally heading somewhere of my own.
I ride alone, alone, alone,
Still don't know exactly where I'm going.
Spent my whole damn life tryna find where I belong,
Maybe somewhere down this road I'll finally make it home.

Where you going?
Where you going?
I don't know yet...
But this time...
I'm finding me.